Last Stand, watercolor on cradled panel, 16×20, $120I wasn’t sure if my head was in Iceland or Vermont today, but the blank slate led the way.
Art
Post Peak

Peaking, Watercolor on canvas, 12 x 12, $70
A wet and windy front moved through over the weekend, blowing tons of leaves off the trees. We’re post Peak now, looking towards stick season, which is usually my favorite, but foliage season this year was especially long and glorious. I got this glimpse of the field near our house just before the front moved in and wanted to paint it while the glow is still fresh in my mind.
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Morning Pages

T1 Day1, pencil and charcoal
Just as great authors have their morning pages, I’m trying a new routine of drawing exercises before or after I paint each morning to gain a better command of the fundamentals — my homemade art school as it were. These are very well-laid plans – the best-laid plans, so I’m not taking any odds on what will happen to them. But the first day was fun.
Wild
I think what struck me so much about Iceland is not that it is untouched wilderness. It is a place where people have cut down trees and built their roads. The Earth, however, will not always stay tamed. She spits out ash to bury buildings and conspires with the wind to make some parts of herself too harsh to ever truly conquer. Continue reading
Taking Back Control

untitled, oil
I had a few ideas for cartoons ready to go at the beginning of last weekend, but suddenly, I didn’t feel very funny. Scratch that. I felt funny strange, but not ha ha funny.
Like most Americans, last Friday I had heard the video tape of one of our presidential candidates bragging about his predilection for sexual predation. I’m guessing I am not the only woman who needed a shower after the second debate was over.
I say this because I know I am only one of countless women for whom this week’s discussions called forth memories of being on the receiving end of that kind of unwanted physical attraction. For me those memories temporarily jammed up my creative energy, and it was hard to get back to recklessly abandoning productivity-killing thoughts as I picked at my own mental wound. The week of news did nothing to improve my mood, and it took discipline to stop picking at the scab and return to the balm that always softens it. There would be no getting to reckless abandon this week, but I knew, as always, art would be my answer. .
I can’t make presidential predators see women as people, nor can I compel true candor from him or his opponent, but I can control whether or not I let my frustration with the system shutdown my own growth. All I can do is pick up a brush and focus, not on what degrades human experience, but what inspires it.
Work in Progress

Kleifarvatn Lake, the largest lake on the Reykjanes Peninsula in southwest Iceland, sits on a fissure on the Mid-Atlantic ridge.
Not too long ago, apparently annoyed by the pesky elves and trolls in whom 60% of Icelanders swear they believe (and 40% won’t say they don’t) Mother Nature cracked up. The earthquake that resulted created a hole in the bottom of the lake. The lake lost quite a bit of water.
A few years later, after living with her impromptu makeover and giving it a real chance, Mother Nature began filling the crack again. She fed the lake from underground, and by the time we saw it, she had almost refilled it.
It’s almost like she was trying to remind us that life is a work in progress — even when you’re 4.5 billion years old.
The Care and Feeding of Green

Þingvellir, Watercolor, 9×12
Even fire and ice, given enough time and almost against their wills, can produce green.
It is the delicate, velvety soft green of life gaining strength. It’s made richer because it grows in the parts of the earth blackened by fire fighting with ice, and it needs only water, sun and permission to grow.
Small Town Summer

Our family used to spend a good part of the summer in Southwestern Michigan. It’s still mostly rural, kind of like where we live in Vermont, and one of my fondest memories was spending summer mornings running around with my Grandmother to the butcher, the market and the farm stand as she shopped for the nightly feast for the family.
Our last stop was at a driveway where a card table, laden with corn, whatever veggies the owner’s garden had yielded that day, and an unlocked cash box. Folded index cards to display the prices. The woman who owned the makeshift stand had usually retired to the beach by the time we got to her place. Even back then, I marveled at how successful the Honor Box tradition was.
I still love the honor box. It’s a quaint way to support a tiny business, but every little self-serve farmstand is also a kind of beacon. It’s a reminder that there’s still trust and trustworthiness. It reminds me there’s still something good out there that I can help grow, just by putting my money in the box.
Just Fly

Yesterday, we went to the ballet recital of a young friend. The younger sister of T1’s girlfriend, we’ve come to think of both girls as practically family and were excited to cheer her efforts.
It was blissfully typical of most dance recitals.
We watched the older girls, getting ready to soar into the next phase of their lives, enjoy well-deserved accolades after years of practice. Then we watched younger dancers emerging like butterflies. Our friend distinguished herself beautifully, hitting her marks and helping the youngest dancers hit theirs.
As usual, those youngest dancers, with their fairy costumes and exhuberance, stole the show.
One little fairy in particular captured everyone’s attention. About four, she sashayed onto the stage as gracefully as a four-year-old can, glancing back at her group for confirmation that the steps were right. Glee infected her as they began twirling, causing us to wonder if she would twirl right off the stage. She was often just a beat behind the others but always a bounce or twirl above, dancing to the music as if she had her own rhythm section in her head.
The music ended, and her partners sashayed off to the left. She began to skip and hop after them, and for a moment she seemed to be trying to fly. The audience chuckled as one and then applauded, as if we were all remembering what it was like to move just for the fun of it and hoping that the little magic spark that lit up the tiny ballerina might actually get her to fly someday.
The Only Thing

Arlington had barely enough interested nine-year-olds to field a team for the Little League minor’s team this year, so when one of the players couldn’t make it to the first away game, parents and players were relieved that an older player from the Majors volunteered to play.
I was happy the boys got to play, but the older boy’s good deed bumped T2 from his position behind the plate as catcher. Knowing how much he loves catching, my relief was tempered a bit. However, I knew it made sense for the older boy to catch because, even in the minors, winning isn’t everything, it’s the only thing.
If the change bothered T2, he didn’t show it. He danced on his way out to center field, bopping to the beat of the internal music in his head as he waited for the ball to leave the pitcher’s hand. In the second and third and fourth inning he danced as he play right field, then center, then right again. He skipped around the bases as he scored a run, sliding into each base for good measure, even when the ball was still in the outfield.
All of the Arlington boys got dirty sliding. The scoreboard was broken, but as our rag-tag team scored one run after another, victory seemed likely.They had faced much older boys for the first two losing games of the season, a win would mean a lot to all of them.
The game ended just after dinner time and shortly before bedtime. Fully revved up, the team began a complex game of skill and strategy that involved racing up and down the bleachers and throwing their gloves at each other. A few dads were talking cars. Moms were talking carpools. The boys were screaming with laughter, making up rules as they played. It was well past official bedtime by the time each boy was buckled in and being chauffeured home.
T2 was sweaty and panting when I asked him if they had won.
“Yeah,” he laughed.
“What was the score?”
“Oh, we weren’t keeping score. We were just having fun.”
“And the ballgame?”
“I can’t remember the score,” he said after a minute. Then he grinned and pointed to his dirty pants. “But I got to slide three times. I think that’s a win.”
It was, and it really was everything.
May Astray

It feels like March outside, but on the first sunny day in weeks, May seems to be rallying.
I’ve been trying to warm to the water pens in anticipation of a trip to Iceland this summer which will require traveling light, but so far I’m not enamored. I’m determined, though. I’m doing a mini-painting a day in my moleskin journal to get revved up for summer shows and trips and hoping the weather will give us something inspirational soon.
Color it Clean… or maybe just Sane
So my post about turning brother against brother to get a room clean, generated a few comments and a bunch of emails, mostly from or about other moms recounting tales of terror inspired by room-cleaning events. There were stories of discovering new life-forms that had evolved from 3-month-old left overs, of dirty socks that could only be moved to the washer while wearing protective gear, and more than one person admitted to blocking out their kids’ rooms from memory until they flew nest.
The disgusting kids room is the 800 pound load of laundry overflowing the mental-health hamper. So in the furtherance of parental peace and sanity, I created a coloring page in honor of anyone who’s been tempted to do a Joan Crawford on their kid’s room.
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