Bodysurfing

Friday night, after a great day at school, I drove home determined to write or paint something. I had gone to bed early each of the previous two nights, and I wanted to make the most of a non-school night. Friday, however, was about to be another part of a nagging pattern. I got home not long after the sun went down, but, even knowing I would sleep late the next day, I headed right to the...

Sunshine on Etsy

Under the heading of "she's kind of funny girl", I decided to blow sunshine up on Etsy. And there is a funny thing about my new mantra. Each time I feel frustrated or down, it gets easier and easier to start blowing sunshine into my life. It appears to be pretty good source of renewable energy so far. I liked that the place that prints these T-shirts offers a few colors. i'm thinking of ordering...

Flying in Formation

Even after 49 years, I can still take surprisingly long time to recognize when a manic episode is starting. It's not telling every person in town I’ll be happy to come over and answer that computer question after work or even right now. It's not acceding to all of Thing1’s needs and wants for college and groceries. Nor is it when I'm googling every graduate program and trying to turn the...

How I Explain It

When we heard that Robin Williams had committed suicide, I hoped we would google it and learn it was just a new, creepy urban legend.  But it wasn’t. We were mostly without internet at the time, so I just caught snippets of reactions from the electronic consciousness.  One snippet seemed to echo frequently.  It was the idea that Williams hadn’t focused on the good in his life or that,...

What This Blog Is

A few weeks ago, my frustration with a writer's block born of the down side of my Bipolar life led me to write about it. It was the first time in my life I had ever written about it overtly. Not knowing how it would be received, I purposely picked a post day when I thought no one would be on their computers. I worried about losing readers, but I was desperate to get past depression and back to...