Drawing Lots

Pneumonia benched me well before Covid-19 invaded neighboring New York State, but my son’s severely compromised immune function was already forcing considerations about whether and how to keep working at the residential school where I teach. Our school immediately implemented Herculean measures to reduce the likelihood of infection. The experiences of other assisted living communities across...

Go Work, Young Man

One of the bonuses having lived with bipolar disorder for over 40 years is that you can see the signs of creeping depression in others. I see it in my students when they have trouble showing up to class for weeks at a time or sleep through most of their school day. I see it in myself when my energy level plummets despite having had plenty of sleep, and, at about 11 o’clock this morning, when I...

It’s In My Job Description

I'm trying, with limited success, to work three jobs. I got the one that pays the bills for 40 to 50 hours a week. I've got the one I took on when the Big Guy and I decided to become parents. And I've got the one that I'm still auditioning for - The one I get up at - still early, Buddy, don't you want to go back to bed? - 4AM to scribble in my notebook and doodle in my...

Radio Silence

   For the last month, I've been wondering if my bipolar disorder had evolved in to something more insidious as the chorus of demands created by a stint of intense overtime at work and holiday social obligations amplified, drowning out much of what matters to me - fitness, writing and even family from time to time.   I had been joking the last few days that - even as a work-at-home-mom - I...

The Windchime

After the storm, the windchime is still in its spot.  It was a gift from the Big Guy's sister who is not my sister-in-law.  She's my sister. We didn't have to go through all the in-fighting that adolescent sisters inflict on their parents.  She lives in Southern New England, so we see each other a few times a year.  Over the years, we've become friends and then truly family. She brought this...