Presence

I mentally patted myself on the back as I got out of the driveway only 5 or 10 minutes late. The town was covered with a fresh 6” dusting of snow, and, as I made my way down the mountain and my favorite scene came into view, I had to stop and snap a photo and then remember to breathe again. The world looked - and, thanks also to my cargo, felt - a lot like Christmas, but something nagged at my...

Bodysurfing

Friday night, after a great day at school, I drove home determined to write or paint something. I had gone to bed early each of the previous two nights, and I wanted to make the most of a non-school night. Friday, however, was about to be another part of a nagging pattern. I got home not long after the sun went down, but, even knowing I would sleep late the next day, I headed right to the...

Selfless self-care

One of the things I’m loving about teaching is that it takes every fiber of your being to do it well. It takes your creativity, your intellect, and your physical input. There’s no way to half-ass it and have any worthwhile outcome. One of the things I love about the place where I teach came as a bit of a surprise to me. During our orientation, the different presenters emphasized the...

Flying in Formation

Even after 49 years, I can still take surprisingly long time to recognize when a manic episode is starting. It's not telling every person in town I’ll be happy to come over and answer that computer question after work or even right now. It's not acceding to all of Thing1’s needs and wants for college and groceries. Nor is it when I'm googling every graduate program and trying to turn the...

Food, Glorious Drug

Food and I go way back. Almost fifty years now. We’ve had a great relationship. I mean, don’t all great friendships include an all-controlling dominant half (food) and a sycophantic lickspittle (me) or, in my case lick-whatever’s-left-on-the-plate? I have started to question that relationship in the last few years. I’ve tried to take the upper hand by counting calories, cutting out...